Hellos again people.  Today wasn't that great a day either.  I don't know what to do.   I was talking to my friends about how things aren't getting any better really, health wise.  Plus, some other things are coming up.  And they told me to tell  my parents, but I am scared to.  Because i always have something wrong... and it's probably nothing.  But, mainly I am just scared.  Don't ask me of what, because it's very complicated.  My nose was bleeding this morning.  That sucked.  It wasn't bad though.  So that's kind of good.  My stomach has been hurting alot too... again.  And my head started hurting again... it kind of went away more for awhile... but now it's like before again.  In truth, i kind of dont' want to go to the doctor again because it seems that everytime I go there, when it's over, I only get worse and not better.  And other stuff that we shouldn't get into because it's just werid.  Well, it's nto that big a deal, but my friends wanted me to tell my parents... but i really don't know... one, I don't want to answer a whole bunch of questions.  Two, I don't want to go to the doctors again.  Three, I don't know how to bring it up.  So yeah. 

Not only that... but lately I have been so emotional.  I get so pissed off and mad easily.  And I get sad really easy to.  But, I'm not so sure why.  It's like everything just irratates me.  And after school today I got a call from a certain someone and like just got so pissed off.  I started yelling to my friend about how I felt and stuff.  She just tried to help calm me down.  I feel bad that she had to be the one near me at the time.  It's funny how this one person can get to me so much.  It's like I can just think about her and a certain subject and I would just lose it.  I would be beyond pissed and like really irratated.  But, she is the only one that I dislike that much. 

You know what I find odd... It's odd how when I i get really cold, my head hurts more.  Or like how when I stress it hurts more.  Or when i get mad.  Basically all the bad emotions make my head hurt more.  Yeah... I was just thinking about that.  Don't know why, but yeah.

Ohh, guess what.  I am now 103!  Haha.  Now I am three digits for sure.  Haha... yups.  Aren't you just proud of me...  oh yeah and cookies offically make me sick now.  I was baking them... and yeah I didn't like the smell.  It made me not so well.  I want fruits.  I heart fruits.  i don't know why I keep talking about so many different things right now.  I just can't seem to stick to one subject.  I use the word "I" alot.  That's bad.  Isn't it?  It's like all I can talk about is myself.  Thats so selfish... yeah...

Well, anywhos... I wanted to write all this for my freeweb... but I am so stupid...  I wasn't sure how to post it up.   Haha... so I decided to put it on my xanga.  I just felt like writing things out somewhere.. well typing... not really writing... yeah...

Lately... I have been having alot of dream of people trying to kill me... I wonder why.  It's strange.. don't you think?  Maybe it's just me.  oh wells, well... I think I am going to go now... there reall y is ntohing left to say.  yups. 

Well, it has been some time since I wrote in here.  I was recently reminded that I even had one.  So, here I am, writing in here. 

For me, today was horrible.  I don't know how to explain why very well.  It was just that everything adds up.  And today my head was hurting so bad and so was my stomach.. Don't ask me why.  Because that I can't really explain. 

Things ended up being really retarded because I would get frustrated really easily.  And even now... I wish I could just be alone... and have no one bother me with stupid things.  It's just that ahhh.  I hate today.  I can't think straight enough to write what's wrong.  Maybe some other time..   Dang!  I still have to read!  ahhh!  okay, maybe i should go read now... and hope my head stops hurting... I feel so ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! 

It's been a while since I have been here.  I kind of forgot I have a Xanga. 

My older sister will offically be moved out of the house and off to collage by the end of this week.  Which means... i get my own room finally.  Funny how not that she will be gone... i will miss her.  which reminds me... school will be starting soon.  and my cousin jackie will be back in about a week or so.  =/ ... if you haven't guessed by now, i don't like him very much.  hmm... i wonder what this year will be like, and i dont' really want to find out. 

for some reason i am very irritable right now.  yesterday too.  and it doesn't really have anything to do with my period starting today either.  for some reason everything just pisses me off.  and almost everything frustrates me to no end.  i was like this during summer school to.  i wish i wasn't homr right now... because they are all so annoying!  why can' tthy just leave me alone for peace and quiet?  right now... i would rather spend everyday alone and just sit and think.  or out with my friends because its easier to deal with them then anything else.  argh... well i gots to go.

well, today pretty much sucked.  i went to the doctors again... to get another check to make sure everything is okay... but i'm on my period so then my test results got all messed up.  so i have to go back when im not on my rag anymore.  plus, i had japanese prefinals today.  and i don't think i did as good as i could have.  so i have to study extra hard for tomorrows half of the test.  plus i have a history test and a science test.  and i want to study extra hard for that too! 

alot has been happening... and i just want to thank all of those who have been there for me... i know that i am not the easiest person to deal with.  so thanks, and i love you guys.  and for all of you who know whats happening, just dont' worry okay? 

i finally went to the doctors today.  that probably makes a lot of you happy.  haha.  (weirdos).  he told me what i kinda already figured.  thats its most likely a migraine.  haha... i got two prescriptions.  two! that's one too many... and its confusing too!  this is why i hate prescriptions.  it makes no sense to give someone two... they should mix it up and make it one.  haha.  that would help me lots.  =].  well, anywhos, it was funny... the doctor was asking me all these questions that i didn't really know the answers to.  so i kept looking at my mom to answer.  and the docter guy said that i should know.  then. he goes... is there any medical problems that i should know in you family?  and i went silent... because i didn't know. and my mom was like um... im not sure.  and he goes yes.  haha.  well, i just saw you grandpa and he has high blood pressure.  and i know your grandama does too.  haha xD.  i was just sitting there looking at him.  okay, im going to go now.  bye!